I HATE THE WORD SECULAR !

So this is probably going to get me a lot heat from my fellow Christian's who over use the word secular.
Be prepared ! I will hold back nothing on this subject !

In the Christian world  some use the word secular because of it's meaning , The   definition of secular is having no religious or being   worldly.

Now is wrong for Christian's to use the word secular ?  The answer is no but over using   the word secular and using the word secular  to convict people and to pass judgement on people is wrong.


Now you are probably thinking that I am a hypocrite because you think being  i am judgmental , well I'm not. I am just tried of my fellow christians using the word secular to demonize music , movies , or anything non Christian . Also trying to open some eyes about this subject because i don't think some Christians don't realize the damage  they do when the use the word secular to convict people or when they demonize things they don't like.


I am going to use Movies and Music as examples  because  theses two sources of entertainment are big issues  when it comes to the word secular and are big issues when comes to us Christians .

With music and movies , it has always been a struggle for Christian's because   Romans 12:2 tells  us not be like the world. So when comes to Mainstream music  or mainstream movies aka secular  ,  Some Christians   ignorantly demonize mainstream  music without  doing any research or even attempt to see if any of its good. There is a lot good mainstream music that doesn't have sex , drugs, booze, or bad morals.  same thing with movies , there is good mainstream movies without sex , drugs, booze, or bad morals.  Now I am not saying that you should listen to mainstream music  or watch movies 24/7 ,  I think there has to be a balance of both.

Now if you don't watch or listen to anything mainstream , thats cool but don't use your conviction to demonize people.


I hope i have open some eyes today, i don't do this out of anger but out love.

A POEM BY KATE HINCKLEY

Naïve
Blinded by your angelic disguise
I followed you to certain demise
I worshipped the ground you tread
But you lead me to hell instead
I believed I wasn’t naïve 
Making me easy to deceive
With each advance you broke my trust
Driven only by your selfish lust
Your lips poured words of change and grace
So gladly your record I did erase
But your actions proved them counterfeit
So this time your crimes I can’t acquit 
I’m sick of all your manipulation
And hypocritical condemnation
Just stop with your lame explanation
Make your actions match your conversation
Show me you’ve changed with demonstration.
But really you deserve congratulations
For shattering all my expectations
So congrats, your words are worthless now
You really deserve to take a bow
But I’ll not be staying for your final act
Where you attempt to change fiction to fact
For my hope for you has been dissolved
And my part in your play has been absolved
So out the door I happily go
As you continue with your twisted show…-
 BY KATE HINCKLEY 

THE DREAMS OF A DREAMER BY BRIAN LEEMAN

As Blake goes to sleeps, he hopes  to visit his dreams in his own personal  dreamland . Blake has so many dreams , what will he dream tonight?

In this dream he finds himself sitting on a dock of some lake with a guy he has never seen but feels like he has known this guy his whole life.

 The Guy says you can ask five questions and I will give you ten answers.
Blake know's what five question's  he want's to ask , he hopes this guy  can answer them  even though he never met this guy in his life.


Blake ask's " Why do I let things get to me  sometimes so easily ? "
The Guy  answer's " Because you don't put you full trust and understanding. "
Blake wonder's what this guy means but he ask's his next question.

Blake ask's : " Why does the world seem so evil theses days? "
the Guy answers " Because They refuse to repent of there sins and follow me."
Blake is shocked by his statement but ask his next question.

Blake's ask '  How did Brittany spears get a record deal ? "
 The Guy laughs and answers " you got me on that one, I guess everyone has a good day, "

Next Blake ask's "  How do gain more wisdom ? "
The guy answers "  Read my word  and pray to me every day for me to help you seek wisdom everyday."
Blake realizes who he is talking to and ask's his final question .

Blake ask 's "  are you Jesus ? "
 Jesus answers " yes , I am , Now wake up and Trust me !


Blake wakes up and feel's a newness upon him , he can't believe the dream he just had !
Blake immediately get's into God's word and pray's for God's  help to gain Godly wisdom and to help him trust God.


I leave with verses : Proverbs 3:5-6 " 5 
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
⁶ In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct^[a] your path"

Matthew 7:7  " ⁷ “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

A LETTER TO MY GENERATION

TO MY GENERATION,

So you all will probably taking this as me judging  but this is not , I writing this out of concern and love. I will be specifically talking to Christians in my generation

Let's look at 1 John 2:6: " Whoever claims to live in him as Jesus ".

This verse is simply saying  if we claim to be a follower of Jesus then we need live and be like Jesus !

My question is , why is my fellow Christians My age or in my age group are not obeying this command ?

I have been hearing lately about my fellow Christians  in my age group are having sex out of marriage, Why is this happening ?

Look at what 1 Thessalonians 4:3-5 say's : "  ³ It is God’s will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; ⁴ that each of you should learn to control your own body^[a] in a way that is holy and honorable, ⁵ not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God;"

Then let's look  at 1 Corinthians 6:18 : ¹⁸ Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body.

Looking at theses verse's , were are suppose to avoid and flee fro sexual  sin and learn to control our own body. An if we don't then were are just like the world.

So why are not obeying this commands ?!!!  God's word never Change's , so tell  me were does it say to run towards having sex out of marriage?!?!

We are suppose to be role models to the generations after us but how can we do that when we are doing what tell them is wrong to do.

An to those Christian's who are strong in faith why are we not saying anything? Yes, were are suppose to love people but when is a enough a enough ?!!

I think we to start taking a stand  against sexual sin in the Christian community .

My age group/Generation needs to repent and flee fro sexual sin, we need to be role models!

We show what it means to be pure, not unpure!

Now you can call me judgmental, a hater , or a super Christian but that does not matter because I am speaking truth, God's holy truth! 

in closing i leave you with this quote: "Abstinence makes the love grow stronger..." - unknown

WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME????!!!!!!!!!! BY BRIAN LEEMAN

How many time's have you wished you could have told that one friend or that one family member about Jesus but didn't for some reason?


Let me give you a chance to see what happen's  when you don't tell that friend or the family member about Jesus.


Jake and Kyle have been best friends since they were four,  nothing could separate  them.

Jake grew up in church  and gave his life  to Jesus at fifteen . Kyle did not grow up in the church and never really who this Jesus, the only thing he knew about Jesus is that Jake believed in him.


Now even though Kyle knew that Jake believed  in Jesus , they never really talked about Jesus.

Jake was afraid to tell Kyle about Jesus because he was afraid  Kyle might reject him and would not want to be friends anymore, plus he knew Kyle was drinking and parting every weekend , so he did want to Kyle to think he was judging him.

Then came that fateful day when Jake wished he would have had told Kyle about Jesus.

One Saturday night , Kyle was leaving a party drunk  and decided to drive home, lost control of his car crashed into a tree and died on impact.

Jake wept at Kyle's funeral , and felt ashamed he did not tell Kyle about Jesus. Jake hoped that before Kyle died , that somehow Kyle gave his life to Jesus  but Jake knew that Kyle probably was in hell.

A week went by since  Kyle's death , when Jake got the weirdest voicemail , and the scary thing was .. ......  IT WAS KYLE!

Jake could not believe this , how could Kyle be leaving him a voicemail when he is dead!

Jake plays the message and what he hears shake's him to his core.



This is the message Kyle left Jake:

Oh Jake why didn't you tell me ??!!!!!!
 It is so terrible here,  I can't see here, it is so dark here!
Jake ,  My body is literally  on fire, it hurts so bad !
My mouth is so dry and  i am so tired but there is no rest here!
Jake, you knew Jesus ! , why didn't tell Me about Jesus or bring to your youth group?

Jake why? why Jake why ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Jake got on his knees and cried out to God asked for forgiveness and also asked him to give him boldness to share Jesus with everyone he knew . Jake did not want anymore blood on his hands , like Kyle's.  From that day on Jake shared Jesus any chance he got .


Now of course this is just a story but there is so much truth in this story. We as Christians are suppose to tell people Jesus, we should never let a chance go by about telling the unsaved about Jesus!

I leave with this verse ,

Matthew 28:19-20

New International Version (NIV)

¹⁹ Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, ²⁰ and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

MAKE DISCIPLES !!!!!

Five things that are making me upset !

So If you can tell by the title I'm not in a good place today, so if you are looking for something positive, you are in the wrong place son!  If you were or are in my place then you would understand why i am so angry. An for those who don't understand , leave your views at the door!






5.   Why am i so angry?

I hate the fact that i let thing's get  to me , why can just let things go and admit i failed at life?
One of theses days i am going to explode , it makes me afraid.
why do i let people in and when they just don't understand me? , this makes me so angry!



4.   Why Can't i have a job?

I do not consider myself a man theses past four years because i have't been able to find a job.
 how i am suppose to get ahead or if i ever get married if i don't have a job?


3.  why i am so ugly?

Even though i lost 85 pounds , i look at myself in the mirror and i all i see is a fat mess.
My teeth are messed up but thats what i get for doing drugs.


2.   Why I am so fearful?
 If i am saved , why i am so fearful that i don't believe i can move forward?
My fear should not control me !



1. why i am not happy?
 I have a roof over my head, food in my belly , and friends and family who love me , but why i am not happy? i feel like until i know i have chance  in this world , i can't be happy




Theses lyrics truly represent what i feel : I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

The Bike Ride By Brian Leeman

While going on my daily bike ride, I had time to ponder  my future , life , and so many other thing's that have been on my mind.

As I ride my bike  I ponder on true love.   Why is it bad dudes get the girl but nice guys are the lonely ones?  Why do people when looking for that one  look at physical beauty the most,? when inner beauty is truly more important.     Why have we let the media influence on what true love is?

As I rid my bike I ponder on the youth in this country.  Why we have let the youth be raised by the media? MTV has show's like teen mom and 16 & Pregnant, basically make it cool to have sex out of marriage and have kids when you are 16. You can' t tell me that youth look at theses show 100 % and think maybe I should wait , no! they look at thoses shows , and think it would be cool if i was on that show.   Why does't the older generation take responsibility  for the world they left todays youth ?
 The older generation wonder why the youth act so crazy , just look what the older generation did to this world. they elected  Ronald Reagan, who made Cocaine more available to low income neighborhood's .  The older generation let prayer banned from schools, and you wonder why we have school shootings?    Don't get me wrong it is not all the older generation's fault , but they are more to blame for why the youth has gone crazy.


As i ride my my bike  I ponder on my life . Am i truly man without a job ?  why do let fear in? I just want to do God's will for life, but i have come to realize that maybe i don't really know what God has planned for my life.  I wonder how i will be able to keep going if something doesn't change soon, i don't to go five years without a job.  I would really like to move to PA because it feels like home.  I wonder sometimes  if i meant  to have a bright future.

Bike ride have been somehow made feel alive again , I never want to lose this feeling.

The Old Man By Brian Leeman

Old man, the name the neighbor kid's called him, real name Jacob banks but for the sake of the story we call him Old Man.

Old Man was born June 2, 1916, in the great state of Texas and came from a family of 13.

Old man fought  on the frontline in WWII at age 23  , At 96 , Old man still remembers those days crystal clear.

The old man after war  married a beautiful young woman name Amy Jo William's , had two handsome boys and worked at a shoe factory.

Now at at 96,  with his wife gone and boys grown up, he lives alone but the neighbor kids have him company, they came by every day to hear his stories .

Old man man knowing that he didn't have much time left in this world , want's to leave the the neighbor   kid's with some life lessons.

So it was the time of day were the neighbor  kid's came to his porch to hear some stories from the Old Man , but Old Man said no stories today kid's but I want to tell you kid's about some  five tips that have helped live this life .

The first tip he gave was ,  Respect your elders even though you might not agree with the.
Old man said  you kid's are young , learn what you can from elders while they are still here.
Old man said this is what my father told me when I was your age , " Only fool will reject the wisdom of his elders!".

The second tip Old Man gave was,  Respect the Men and Women who thought for this country and fought for your freedoms you love.
 The Old man also  added , If you ever want to learn respect for life , join the the Army.

The third tip he gave was,  Don't waste Life on what if's, always move forward !
He also added that , your past should stay your past.



The fourth tip he gave was , respect your parents, there the only parents you have!
He also added ,  Tell your mom and dad that you love them every day.
An the fifth tip he gave was the most important he could give , Give your to Jesus, he has brought  me through the bad times and blessed during the good times.

The neighbor kid's left and the old man hoped they were listening to his words.

Old man died the the next day, all the Neighbor kids came to his funeral left notes of thanks at his grave .

the moral of this story is to leave your kids with wisdom ,

DEAR GOD

DEAR GOD,

God I am  writing this letter to out of confusion and hurt,  I have some questions  and sou like some answers if you have the time .

Lately I feel you have forgotten me,   is there something  wrong  with me?

My friends and love ones tell me to stay strong  and that you have a plan for my life , do you have a plan for my life ?

God, i feel like i am on my own, my friends and family  can't help me, what i am supposed to do?   

God don't get me wrong , i am grateful for what  you have blessed me with and for you bringing me to New york.

God, i see my friends getting married and wonder do you have a special lady for me? 

 God  ,  Please don't take me as a selfish person, i just want to be successful  so i can help other people who  are down on there luck.

God,  If i could ask one favor , please keep my mom and dad safe and healthy  an also could you make sure brother stays in college . I hope this is not to much to ask.

In closing God , Please don't forget me

Love,

Brian Luke Leeman

P.S.  Thank's for saving my soul

  

A TALE OF THE DRUG DEALER NAMED BLAKE

Have you ever wondered  what a Drug dealer life is like or what a drug dealer is thinking when he selling drug's to addicts ?

Well let me tell a tale of a life of a Drug dealer and maybe you will get a snippet of a insight of what this Drug Dealer goes through daily.

Five am, Blake wakes up from  a nightmare that he has every night , he is started to get worried .

In his NightMare , he see's himself giving his own eulogy at his funeral and then being buried alive.

Blake wonders  if this is a vision of his future  but he shrug's  the dream off  and gets ready to sell crack cocaine as does every day.

 

You are probably wondering how he got into selling crack , well it's a long story but here's the short version.

Blake grew up in a low income  Christian home  and went to church until he was 14.  At Blake starts drinking and smoking weed and partying very weekend

 At 14 ,  Blake is sick of church and   sick of not having a enough money for what he wants, so he gets in touch with a friend  who as selling weed and pills.

Blake starts selling weed and pills but it is not enough , so he starts selling crack cocaine and starts using cocaine daily.

At this point in Blake's life  he feels so numb , yet a part of him still has life.

He use to feel bad about selling drugs but now it doesn't matter if it is a underage kid, as long he get's money.

Blake has everything he ever wanted in life, Money, women, and as much food as he wanted.

Lately Blake is using more and is getting into his own stash , which  is affecting his money.

Blake knows he is in trouble  and knows he needs to change but he wonders if he can ever change.

So Blake decides to get sober and stop selling to see if there is more to life then Money, partying, and selling drugs.

Not having the money to go to rehab , Blake rehab's self.

Realizing that he can not do this on his own, he goes back to the church he grew up in and listens to the pastor preach on God's saving Grace.

Blake realizes he need's repent his sins and gives his life to Jesus, finally Blake has found what he has looking for along , love of a father that can give more then what the world can give him.

The rage of a confused young man by Brian Leeman

The Rage of this young man is festering in his soul, waiting for a chance to explode .
 The young man cry's out to God , " Why have you cursed  me ? What I have done to receive this misery ? "
The Rage laughs at the young man's cry's and continues to fester inside the young man's soul.
The  young man  reaches out to his friend's , they cannot give any solid answers or any real help,
The Rage laughs again but now it is more sinister, The Rage continues to fester in the young man's soul.
 The young man thought he found the girl of dreams , a girl that understood him , a girl that made feel that it was ok to dream. but she did  not feel the same feelings the young man did.
The Rage laugh's with his sinister laugh  and the Rage continues to fester in his soul.

the young man cry's out to God one more time " God , I am done , please just help me, I can't fight this fight anymore .

The Rage laughs at young man's cry's and The Rage festers in the young mans soul waitng for a chance to explode .