IN PROCESS BY BRIAN LUKE LEEMAN

So i want to in the post share some breakthroughs i have had  recently and what is going on with me .

Last Sunday  i knew i had to go to church , something inside me was saying that i needed to be in church .

It started  during worship with Mark ( the leader of my church ) side hugging me an saying " you are not a orphan and you are loved ".  

That stirred my heart up and i  just let my worries go during worship an felt i was being held .

I knew it was  God holding me and letting me know that i am loved .

Then at the end of service they did this prayer tunnel thing ( basically the elders of church prayed for me and gave me words of knowledge), i felt so encouraged  and i have not been the same since .

I have had this unexplainable   joy in soul , i feel like things are going to get better sooner or later.

God reminded of a proverb and a psalm : 

Proverbs 3:5-6New International Version (NIV)

5 Trust in the Lord with all your HEART
    and lean not on YOUR OWN understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,

    and he will MAKE YOUR paths straight.[a]

Psalm 121 New International Version (NIV)

Psalm 121

A song of ascents.

1 I lift up my eyes to THE MOUNTAINS—
    where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
    the MAKER of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your FOOT slip—
    he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 INDEED, he who watches over Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The Lord watches over you—
    the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
6 THE SUN will not harm you by day,
    nor the moon by night.

7 The Lord will keep you from all harm—
    he will watch over your life;
8 the Lord will watch over your coming and going
    both now and forevermore.

One thing I struggle with is trusting in God with my life , every thing !

But i am start to realize that i can't not make it through this tough season with out God's strength and guidance ,  WHICH MEANS I AM NOT ALONE !!!!!!

So right  i am going thorough a   process of learning to put my full trust in God and that i am loved .

So i ask that you keep me in your prayers  while i am on this journey.


An lastly .....................................................................................................................................

DON'T GIVE UP !, IT WILL GET BETTER!  

WHEN IT RAIN'S , IT POUR'S BY BRIAN LUKE LEEMAN

I look out my bedroom window and i watch the rain drops come down heavily , how the hell did end in this crap hole  ?

I have been living in a men's shelter for almost six months and i have not been able to move forward as fast i should be.

I apply for jobs like crazy , call places like crazy, listen and act  on peoples advice on finding , an i am getting no were!!!!!!!!

Right i am going to see if  maddock family services can help me , not putting to much hope in that .

You might be asking why i have such a negative attitude about my situation,  BECAUSE THIS WHOLE SITUATION IS BS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And as a Christian i am suppose to put on a fake smile  and say the thank you God for this rough season because to make me a better person ? HOW THE HELL DOES THAT MAKE SENSE ?!?!

I am mentally tired and tired of putting on a  mask that says  i'm okay, when i am not .

I feel like i have a storm cloud over that sun can not break through  .

I just want to be successful but i am realizing that might just be a dream , which frightens me.

Its like i am in a pit an there is a rope but i can't reach it to get out .


So in closing i leave with this qoute , " My mind is a mess and my heart is a wreck " -

Backseat Goodbye – So Long, You Were Right

ENGAGING THE CULTURE !!! BY BRIAN LUKE LEEMAN

This Sunday at church i was inspired by message shared by a leader in our church.

He talked about engaging the different cultures and not staying in our christian bubble .

The message made ask myself i am reaching/engaging cultures other then my own?

Well i guess i am , with living in a  men's shelter   i have come in contact with different backgrounds i am been in before and ones i have not .

 I thank God for giving me the blessing of being able to understand were the guys are at in life, cause all theses guys need is somebody to listen to them.

So in this blog entry i want to talk about engaging the culture .

Mark 2:15-17New International Version (NIV)

15 While Jesus was having dinner at Levi’s house, many tax collectors and sinners were eating with him and his disciples, for there were many who followed him. 16 When the teachers of the law who were Pharisees saw him eating with the sinners and tax collectors, they asked his disciples: “Why does he eat with tax collectors and sinners?”

17 On hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

Jesus came for everybody  not just a certain group of people .

Jesus came for the broken , the poor, the rich,  the sick , he came for everybody!!!!!!!!!!!

WE as Christians need to get out of our comfort  zone and reach other cultures we are not use to.

For example, the Gay community, though  don't agree with there lifestyle choice or gay marriage , does not mean we should not try to reach them and show them God's love .

  I think we need to find a way to reach them without bashing and making them feel like dirt .

Another example, the homeless, there are a lot of stereotypes about the homeless , some true and some not .  they are broken people who need hope .

We to show them that there is light at the end of tunnel and that Jesus loves  them.

Ways you can help the homeless : 1. Volunteer at soup kitchen .    2.  donate blankets .  3.  give gift cards 4.  be kind 

My challenge for you this week is to engage someone from a different walk of life then yours and just listen to them .