DEAR LADIES,

DEAR LADIES

This Letter is coming out of  a little frustration but I have some things that i need to get off my chest .

 I consider myself a nice guy  and has respect  for women but it seems like nice respectful guys is not what you ladies want theses days.

 It seems you ladies want guy who use's you ,  a guy who put's you down or cheat;s on you.

Tell  me how that logic makes sense ?

I think its messed up some you ladies  have this addiction to bad boy's, plus what is more surprising is that you Christian Ladies  are addicted to bad boy's!

What also frustrate's me is that you ladies  today  pour your heart to a guy and the guy pours his heart to you , then you friend zone the poor guy! To me its messed up !

listen i do believe a guy and girl can be friends and share personal things but there is a line between sharing personal things with your guy friend and and the guy you really like , just saying.

I am not typing this letter out of judgmental mindset  but out a tough love mindset , i just think you ladies could do better!

So i hope you ladies are not too mad at me , just know b leems loves ya!

B LEEMS TOP 20 FAVORITE ARTIST AND BANDS OF ALL TIME !

 Well I thought today i wanted to  blog something fun , so I thought i would share my top 20 all favorite  artist  and bands of all time .  So I hope you enjoy this list of great muisc and maybe discover some new music. 




20. John Mayer

John mayer understands what it means  to be singer/songwriter ,  to me he is the modern day James taylor.  Each of his albums have a different sound  and  feel, which is why i love his music .  here is my favorite song by john mayer : John mayer - Gravity



19.  Third Day


Third Day is one of greatest Christian  Bands  ever .   They know that there music is not about them ,  Its telling people about Jesus's  LOVE and Salvation.    There is not a song by third day has not touch my life, there songs have always been been a blessing to me . Here is my song by third day : Third Day - love song




18.   Yellow card


Yellow Card is one of Favorite pop punk bands because they are true to themselves and there fans. I love that Yellow Card has  Violinist in there band , it makes there music so much better .   Here is my favorite song By Yellow Card :Yellow card - Gifts and Curses




17.   jimmy needham

Jimmy Needham Voice is just amazing ! His music is what this generation needs to hear !  Here is my favorite song by jimmy needham:  Jimmy Needham- Rend


16.   For Today
For today is one favorite Christian Metal Bands because there music is awesome and the one the few true Christian metal bands that are truly christian.  Here is my favorite song from them :For Today - Isaiah ( The willing)


15.    Keith urban 

Keith uRban makes music you can sing along  and create memories with. I think its awesome that he is a american idol judge . Here is my favorite Keith Urban song:Keith Urban - you'll think of me


14.  Jason aldean 


not much to say i just love his music. heres my favorite song by jason aldean: Jason aldean- dirt road anthem

13.   Relient  k 

one of my favorite Christian Pop punk bands  Is relient k because not only is there music  awesome but inspiring. here is one of my favorite Relient k songs: Relient K- Be My Escape

12.  Killswitch engage

KillSwitch Engage is one best alternative Metal bands i have ever heard !  there music is reason why i love metal ! Here is my favorite song from them : Killswitch Engage - My Last serenade

11.   Trip Lee

Love Trip Lee's flow and music, to me he is one best mc's to grace mic .  Here is one of my favorite Songs by Trip lee : Trip Lee - Prognosis


Now the  top Ten !!!!
                       
10.   emery

Emery is another one of my favorite christian Pop rock bands  !      here is my favorite song from Them : Emery - Walls



9.  Ron pope

Ron pope is one of best singers i have heard in awhile , he one of the few artist i can say that there is not a song by him i don't like.  Here is one of my favorite songs by him: Ron Pope - Fireflies


8. James morrsion

James morrsion is  just awesome enuff said ! here is my favorite song by him : James Morrison- I wont let you go

7. Thi'sl


One of favorite christian rappers  is Thi'sl   ,  He is what Christian Hip hop and Mainstream hip hop needs!!!!   Here is my favorite song by him : Thi'sl - I hate you


6.     Andy mineo

Andy Mineo is just awesome and he understands what people want to hear . here is my favorite song : Andy mineo You will


5.   Journey
  One of my favorite soft rock bands ever ! they know how to make great music  to listen to! here is my favorite : Journey - Faithfully


4.  Elton John

Elton john is one of the best Singers and piano players ever ! love his music ! here is my favorite songs ! : Elton John - Your Song

3. Lecrae

Lecrae is one of remodels and favorite rappers, his music is what we need to hear . here is my favorite song by Lecrae : Lecrae - just like you

2.   Otis redding

Otis redding to me is the king of R & B and Soul , his music  takes ona trip you never want to leave. Hers is my favorite song by him : Otis Redding - I've Been Loving you too long


an number ! is................

1.   Johnny Cash

Johnny cash is  one of America's  all time singers , he knows how to make people relate to his music.  He is truly missed , hers is my favorite song by Johnny Cash : Johnny Cash - Ring Of Fire

WHY BEING SOBER IS DOPE

June six of this year will be my 4th year being sober!
It has been tough four years but has been worth it because I don't live in a fog anymore.
You might be asking how in the world did I get sober and stay sober ? ,  well it was not easy , so let me share my journey .
 For those who don't know i started  smoking weed when i was 14 , then started drinking,  then went to popping pills , and then finally smoking Crack cocaine .

For seven long years I lived in a fog of drug induced false happiness , I will not lie , being on the drugs i was  on was  awesome and was fun but it did last for long .

I was getting to a point  were i couldn't the same high  or i couldn't get drunk enough, so I kept on increasing my drug  use intake  and  drinking bottle after bottle of Vodka and jack Daniel's.

Got to point were i was tired of not knowing if the next day I would be alive or dead and knew if kept going I was going to die sooner or later.
On june six of 2009 I quit using drugs and
So one Sunday Morning in October  I went to a Morning service at the Church I Grew up in  and my Pastor preached a sermon that touched my heart and soul, an so i decided to follow Jesus and Gave my life to Jesus.

Now  It hasn't been a easy ride but Life is not meant to be easy .

Here is what helps me stay sober ,  1.  Prayer!  By praying for God's help , I  acknowledge that i am Helpless without God's Love   and Understading ,  God helps me stay sober
2, READ THE BIBLE! I can not go day without reading God's word , it is my  lifeline and guide for life.
3. SURROUND YOURSELF AROUND PEOPLE WHO WISE AND GODLY!!!  I have two great best friends ( who are brothers ) Sam and Joel , they keep me grounded  and encourage me . I would have not made it this far without there help.


All the glory Goes to God , Cause without  God i would not be alive today!


I will leave wit a verse and a quote.  
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
⁶ in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.^{[a] - Proverbs 3:5-6}

Recovery from addiction requires hard work, a proper attitude and learning skills to stay sober, not drinking alcohol or using other drugs. Successful drug recovery or alcohol recovery involves changing attitudes, acquiring knowledge, and developing skills to meet the many challenges of sobriety.- Dennis Daley, PhD. Dr. Daley

Why Do Tragedy's Happen?

We are all  hurt and deeply sadden  from the bombings  and i bet the big question is why do theses tragedies happen ?    
That is a very hard question to answer because  there is no solid  answer to here this question.
 But there are  many   answers, like  some people are just pure evil ,   we have to much violence in our culture ,  God must hate us , and so many more .
Are some people just pure evil ? I don't think so, I believe that some people have let evil into there lives.
An when you let evil aka darkness into your life , it  will consume you and destroy your  life.
Is our culture too violent ?   Yes in a way because we do have some what of a fixation on violence with our music , video games . and movies. But do not believe you can totally blame music , video games , and movies. I think it depends how you grew up .
Does God Hate Us? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 God does not hate us  and we cannot Blame God for when Tragedy's happen.
God gave freewill , we choose what Good or Evil we do!
2 year's ago a youth pastor choose to commit an evil act And  at one point i wondered why God allowed this to happen .  But  I soon realize now that our Youth pastor choose to sin  and God did not want this to happen.

In closing ,  bad things will happen in life  but we have this verse to comfort us and give us peace '   10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand". Isaiah 41:10

Has Lecrae changed ?

So lately there has been Christians  and Christian rappers  have said Lecrae has changed because he does songs with mainstream rappers.  I really don't get this logic, what is Lecrae doing wrong ??!
 With that logic they are saying  Matthew 28: 19 is wrong, ”¹⁹ Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,

We as Christians are called to be witness to unbelievers and make disciples  from all  nation's , so why is it wrong for Lecrae to do music with theses rappers?

The songs he has done with mainstream rappers have been postive , he is not doing songs with the talking about the trap, getting laid, or partying . here is somes songs he did with some mainstream rappers , tell what is wrong about theses songs .   Lecrae - Mayday ft. Big K.R.I.T & Ashthon Jones
Best Thing That I Found Saigon ft. Lecrae, Corbett


Lecrae is doing what God has call him to do and has not changed .
I ask those who judging Lecrae , to open your hearts and stop this hate.

Are tattoo's wrong?

So I am probably open a can of controversy with this topic but I think we need be open about this topic.    There always  a debate on this topic because of this verse in Leviticus 19:28 " ²⁸ “‘Do not cut your bodies for the dead or put tattoo marks on yourselves. I am the Lord".
 The way some Christians see the meaning of verse is for us Christians  not to getting any tattoo's , but look at the context  and the time this verse was set in , you would realize that this verse was about pagan's who involved idol worship which involved  cutting themselves for idols and having symbols of there idols  tatted on there bodies. Now don't get me wrong i do believe if your are  putting tattoo's  before God and they are become an idol in your life , you to stop getting tattoos.   Lets look at the verses before  Leviticus 19:28, ²⁶ “‘Do not eat any meat with the blood still in it.“‘Do not practice divination or seek omens.²⁷ “‘Do not cut the hair at the sides of your head or clip off the edges of your beard. 
 These all had to do with  pagan rituals , many christians do eat non kosher meats  and get haircuts without getting involved in pagan rituals. An of course it s wrong to read horoscopes and have your future told by fortunes tellers.  
My personal view is i don't think you should just getting any tattoos you want , you should think before you and pray about it .
I personally think its ok for Christians to get tattoo's and i will one day get tattoo's. 


So in closing, i would say its not wrong to get tattoo's but pray before you get tattoo's .

What Happen to Music?!!

Music today has become garbage and unbearable !

just a warning i will have lyrics that might offend you,  trying to make point  about how music has become  straight Garbage.

I going to show you why and how today's muisc has become garbage.

Let's look at some lyric/rhymes from rapper 2 Chains. "She got a big booty so I call her Big Booty

- 2 chains , birhtday song   

IS THIS WHAT IS CALLED LYRICISM / MUISC??!! I don't understand  How this is condoned and how 2 Chainz can be consider a MC.   I think it is reallly sad that sex has become  some artist's main theme in there music .    SEX was never meant to be perverted but we have made it so disgusting .    Here some lyrics from    FUN's song  we are young " My seat’s been taken by some sunglasses asking 'bout a scar, and

I know I gave it to you months ago

In this song it is clearly talking  about a guy talking about a scar he made on his girl's face. But Because this has catchy beat , this lyric has been looked past .  I wonder if we actually take time to listen to the Lyrics of the muisc we chose to listen .  Heres is some lyrics from Wiz Khalifa's  song Mary 3X : Like me be smoking while I'm driving

Getting higher than the Bee gees, sayin' we both just stayin' alive an' (stayin' alive an')
Watching the time go by (time go by), climbing (climbing)
Told you I did enough hash, to make a mountain (make a mountain)
And you could sit right on your a*** (right on your), doubting (doubting)
While I'm somewhere rolling up grass, going up where the clouds is (clouds is)
Some n***** say they get so high that I ain't f***** with' em'
I say if them n*****ain't get that high then I ain't f*****' with' em'
Doing nothing with' em, rolling up or puffin with em'
Going on the road, doing shows or getting duckies with' em' (duckies with' em')
I been smoking in my pictures since myspace
You n***** extra-curricular, b***** I fly straight

It is sad that  Drugs have become the norm in artist's songs , when drugs have killed so many musicians. The sad thing is that theses artist are only partially to blame for this mess. We have to take responsibility  too because we buy there music and give the a message to the records companies that this what we like in our music that we listen to. But have no fear there is good  music to listen to her some links for some good music ,Ron pope " Drop in the ocean"

Ed sheeran A team

A Rocke to The moon If the only knew

Now i personally don't listen to mainstream Rap, I only listen to Christian rap.  not just because i am christian  but also i love real rap.  here are some my favorite Christian rappers: Reconcile Never would have made it

Lecrae FEAT TH"SL Fakin

Bumps ING Shunned by society

Theses are just my views , it is up to to come to you own conclusion.

 

Were Do I Go Next?

Before  you read this, i ask  you to read this with a loving heart and not a condemning heart .
 

For those don't know  i struggle with depression and bi polar disorder , lately its been tough.
 For those who don't what Bi polar is , here is some info.   Bipolar disorder, with its extreme mood swings from depression to mania, used to be called manic depressive disorder. Bipolar disorder is very serious and can cause risky behavior, even suicidal tendencies.- WebMD.com

Now i am not suicidal  but i have been going from really happy to  really sad. 

I wonder sometimes if i should go back on medication but I am afraid that with my past of being addicting to drugs that i will  get addicting to the medication. Plus i don't have insurance, so i don't have a option to seek medication.   Theres a big part of me does not want to go back on meds because i don't to become a drugged up walking zombie .    an the other thing is i feel if i went back on meds , i would be saying i don't trust God.

So you are probably wondering what i am so depressed  about, well sometimes i just don't know .

But what has been bothering  is that i feel like i am stuck . I am 24 , i have no job , and everything i do  seems to fail. an the weird thing is i know  i am not a failure!   I just want to be a man that my friends and family can be proud of .   I feel like have become a burden  to the ones who care and love me. 

The only that  helps me hold on is God, prayer, the Bible  , friends , and my family .    

I firmly believe God has a plan for me like its says Jeremiah 29:11, so i know i have future but i wish things would start happing for me because i have done all i can.

For thoses took time to read this and read it with understanding , thank you .

An to those who think  i am whining and complaining , forget you !  I know there whole lot of people who have it worse then me. so don't waste your breathe trying to make feel worse !