A warning to who read this , I am going to be totally honest in this blog entry . So if your going to read this , read at your own risk.
I got a job at shoprite as a cashier after 4 long years , I am so happy i got the job but i wonder if this it for me ?
To be honest this job is hard for me because of my learning disability(not using it as excuse ), i wonder how long i can keep this job because i am mistakes on things i should be already not making .
Now i do have good days as a cashier but i just it had more because i really need this job.
Am I wrong to be worried about my learning disability?
I see were this world is going and i wonder if i even if i have chance at a future.
I want to be a youth pastor, get married , have a house , and have some kids, but i wonder if that will ever happened.
I am 24 , not saying i am old but i am not fresh out of high school either were i have some time to figure things out. I am tried of hearing that i need to wait, i might have to wait 4 yrs to find a job not 40 yrs but it does not make sense that i have to wait another 4 or maybe 5 to be were my friends are at!
Am i wrong to want to move forward in life and want to prove to people that i am not a screw up aka failure?
Sometimes i wonder if God hears my prayer's or see's what i am going through or waht i am going through mentally .
I sometimes question Jeremiah 29:11 because i don't get what his plan is for life .
To my fellow christians , don't you dare say you never questioned God !
I am a weird point in my life were i need answers to my questions .
In closing, you can judge on what i just wrote in this blog entry but this what i am going through , so deal with it!
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